Committing TREASON

I love that blogs are like an online diary that you can express yourself in a way perhaps not many people see and what you don't want people to see..

It is inevitable that this is going to include some whinging, wining & drama.

It's healthy to get things out in the open & for me this is as out in the open as I like to get. I have had to much drama & many thoughts/feelings to follow.

I am not a drama queen & I hate the stigma that drama queens have produced that if a girl is upset or going through something that it is for attention.

People should just not butt in unless invited. So what if my blog is an emo roller coaster of self righteousness.

The beauty of the internet is disguise. Anonomy. I like that a site like this enables people to express themselves and observe on things without copping flack. As do many, that is why almost no-one has there really name on the blogs that are about what they're really thinking, we like to all think we don't give a shit about what others think but c'mon... why even say that sentence if you don't... you're obviously saying it because u care that people are saying or acting a certain way so reaction is to "not care"

It's OK to care about what people think of you, otherwise you'll never improve,change see the error of your ways and on the positive- you'll never realised you've achieved something, or made someone happy... Sometimes it takes what someone thinks to improve you for the better..


But this of course is my opinion. And not a cry for attention nor acceptance. I don't cry to anyone, and I have wrote some pretty emo blogs in the past, It embarrasses me at the thought of people reading them but at the same time it felt wicked to get it out of me so that it doesn't come out in another form such as snapping at somebody or being emotionally wrecked for the next time I deal with something.

"Don't have issues, It wastes Tissues" haha I should def write lyrics.

Will We Ever Learn?

They say you can't teach a dog new tricks, ok, so I'm not referring to the human race & our society as a dog, but you have to see where I'm coming from. Take a moment & think about this.. If we are the dominant highly evolved species why is it that we continue to make the same dismal mistakes as the generations before us?

When you are involved in something it has consequences- you generally learn the cause & effect of such actions, when a dog does something bad it is punished & it quiet quickly learns that if it participates in such behaviour it will be hurt. Now, if a dog can learn, then why haven't we?

World war 1, world war 2, the war in Iraq, the extremely naieve autocratic Tsarist system of Russia, The 3rd world countries that exist today despite how modernised and advanced the world has become. Is it in our nature as human beings to beleive it will be different this time?

Wars are generally started from a minor spark that ignites because of the petrol doused issues before hand just waiting to explode. Countries are bound by contracts stating loyalties and allies to other countries in the event of a war. WWI began when the assasination of a man who was from one country that was seen to be trying to take over another country, when this event occured another different country not involved agreed to back up & help this country resulting in a domino effect activating alliances with certain countries hence the activation of world war one. The alliances drawn into war had nothing to do with the event that sparked the world war.

Hearing this now personally makes me shake my head & scoff at the stupidity of it all, especially now we know the devestation that ensues war to countries, families, the economy etc, but the most astounding fact is that this was WWI, thats right, even after the devastation caused and seen due to WWI, there were still yet to be many more wars throughout the years.

Is it Greed, pride, envy, the right thing to do..? Anyone can justify themselves in what they are doing. Prehaps to them they see it as a necessary means to an end yet it is inevidable that you will come up against or cross paths with someone who beleives there way is the right way yet is totally opposite to your own views & opinions.

The wars within ones personal life, insignifigant to other people & tiny in the scheme of things, however so massive as it shapes a person & there decisions in there everyday life.

For instance- Addiction- how many million people past, present and still to come will succumb to drug addiction or alcoholism? As a young adult we are taught the dangers and effects of drugs & alcohol yet I have seen people, as I'm sure you have also, wether it be yourself or others around you, who know the same as we do yet have done or still to this day do what they know is bad for them. People who make mistakes when they're drunk & are ashamed of them. However repeat the same routine the very next weekend even after identifying the problem occurs whilst innebriated.

Relationships & trust - Assuming we all have known or been around someone who is in a toxic relationship. From the outside you wonder how on earth someone could keep on going back to this relationship, or when something does go wrong nyou are there to pick up the pieces only to find out shortly after that they are back in said "toxic relationship".

This isn't my answer to the meaning of life but rather a few rhetorical questions, does it all boil down to personality types & how we clash with each others ideoligies. Why does it seem to matter so much to people to be agreed with?

In hindsight can you beleive how Adolf Hitler was able to get away with the extermination of human lives & that others actually agreed or let it happen nonetheless?

Global warming is at an all time high yet we are building bigger higher powered jet engines- high performanced V8 racing cars, do we have the mind set that it won't happen to us? The saying bad things happen for a reason and the reason usually is lessons to be learnt so as to not repeat the mistake. I hoped by now is some aspects of life the more powerful people of the world like the governments would have learnt from the previous mistakes throughout history. Maybe all humans are silly enough to believe they will somehow prevail at what others once failed. If so, it's hard to be excited by the future. How do we pick the right thing to do, and who determines what is right?

Do humans as it is time to make important choices that affect our everyday lives and our future have the attitude and belief that that they will be lucky or special enough to achieve what those before us failed at? The saying 'it won't happen to me", needs to be emphasised to those starting there lives and the decisions they will start making ,that it is a mythical sarcastic fairytale saying. Open your eyes people, if the signs are there that something is not right then you're probably right.

If you have an idea, a will, a way or what you are trying to achieve you need to keep in mind that your not the only person who feels like this. Everything has a reaction & consequences to follow. At the end of the day, the end of the war or the morning after- the mistakes that were made, was it really worth it?

I do not have an explanation nor a view but I have made an observation from my life & the way things are. You could be doing the right thing yet totally the wrong thing in someone elses eyes. The world around us obviously needs something to emerge that hasn't already, something to fix it, something that ALL will agree on, something that benefits equally and does not hurt anyone in the process. Please ask yourself this, will we ever learn & exactly what is it we need to learn?