Yes.

I've had massive 'writers block',,,(if i could call myself one) but like the usual flow I had isn't there..not that I've nothing to say..just so much that is best left to rest..

Happily listening to lisa mitchells album.

I was accepted into 2 separate uni courses. Last year I went to college as mature aged student (makes me sound ancient) and passed t.e.e, originally I'd planned on uni but I don't see myself committing to 4 yrs of f/t study-ie-living at home on f all money!! no thanks, I now have the certificate to prove I'm not a dumb Blonde..sometimes :p

Anyways.. I'm super excited about June cause I'm starting my job up north in Coral Bay.. Its just on the horizon- and adventure escape :D

I'm 22, I don't have a clue what I want to do with my life and I'm fine with that. I can feel something good, an excitement I haven't felt in a while and it feels so fucking good.

& She Lived Happily Ever After~

it would of been the right thing to know when it happened so that i could of made the decision. not be lied too.

but it was kept from me.

and knowing this last year would have certainly meant i wouldn't of failed at that caertain attempt.

finding out on sunday, 4 days ago, is shattering.

it would of been any time to hear such a thing.

i cant eat and its hard for me to catch my breath.

my worst fear which i now realise was my overwhelming sense of intuition that made me sick, it was coz it was what actaully happened.

I feel liberated in a way now that it is all after 3 years of back and fourth out in the open and i feel i have closure.

Now that I can see you for what you are its not hard to mourn the loss of what I thought was love.

Im happy cause I know that means I havent met the one yet, it certainly wasn't you.

:) xxx